My Testimony- How the Lord saved me

I have been feeling led by the Lord to share my testimony. My whole life I always "believed" in God. I grew up primarily as a Catholic. I never really read the bible or knew much about God. Back in 2015 I decided to practice my Catholic faith more closely. This involved praying to Mary and various saints. I even start to attend Catholic Mass. But something wasn't right. I felt so distant from God. I started to resent the whole idea of church and "religion". Shortly after that, I lost my grandfather. He was so dear to me like a second father. I was so angry with God. I didn't want to accept that he was gone. I decided to turn to the internet to read about "keeping in touch" with your deceased loved ones. This included meditations, opening your "third eye" and several other New Age practices. Ever since then, I continued to immerse myself in these practices. 

One of the things that the New Age believes are "angel numbers". Angel numbers are repeated number sequences that are spiritual guides or contain a special message. One time I had a dream that my grandfather was showing me the number 3636. When I woke up I immediately looked up what those numbers meant. It stated "positive growth and financial gain". Later on I went to work and my boss shared that I am getting a significant raise. I was astonished! I was fully convinced that these New Age beliefs were true and no one can tell me otherwise. I was getting results. I was "keeping in touch" with my grandfather. After several months of practicing my New Age beliefs, I decided to get into Mediumship. After all I have learned and experienced, I felt that I could help others keep in touch with their loved ones too. 

I found Josie Grouse, a Psychic Medium on YouTube. She was offering a program where you can become a Psychic Medium. I saved money for this program and began to enroll. As I was filling out my information for enrollment, an overwhelming feeling of doubt came over me. I felt so distant from God at this point that it was alarming. So I paused and prayed to God. I remember praying this: "God, I haven't spoken to you or heard from you in so long. I am so sorry that I have grown so distant from you. Am I doing the right thing by becoming a medium?". After I prayed, everything suddenly felt different. I wasn't feeling at peace with my decision to enroll in the program. So I put it off for a while longer. 

This is when the spiritual warfare started. One evening I was sitting at the living room with my dad and randomly his cell phone flew from the coffee table and hit against the wall. My dad and I were petrified. It sounds so odd, I know. No one believed us. The scares continued. For 7 nights I had sleep paralysis. One night I saw a dark shadow. I tried to ignore it and close my eyes. I then heard growling in my ear. I called on the name of the Lord to save me. Each time I cried for Jesus, the unclean spirit fled from me. I saw the power that the name of Jesus had. Surely he has to be Lord! I am overjoyed to say that after that dark time, the Lord delivered me from Satan and New Age. If only I dusted off my bible and read this: Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God. 1 John 4. 

Everything felt different from that day on. Things I used to love no longer sounded appealing to me. Of course like most people, I didn't know what it meant to be saved yet. That was until I met my sweet Husband. My husband has brought me closer to the Lord and I am forever grateful for that. I have done nothing to deserve God's saving grace. I confessed that I was a sinner that was trying to find life in darkness. I learned that Jesus died on the cross so I can have eternal life. I can't think of any love greater than that. For 6 years now I have been living for Lord and not the world or man. My prayer for you today is that you too will confess your sin, repent and accept Christ as your Lord and Savior. May God be with you all! ❤🙏❤